When we first met up on AIM, you represented yourself very different from how you rep yourself in this thread.
I still don't know if you're a shared account, or one guy with a complex story, or a guy who makes up a lot of drama.
You're really bright, and I'd love to work with more bright people, but it sounds to me like you're having trouble making good decisions, and unfortunately are one of those guys who pays full price in consequences.
Here is an idea. Sell your house. Then get some low wage jobs to pay for you to start your own business. Do your own thing. There are thousands of people doing business online and no one does a personal check on them.
Or you can keep holding on to things you can't afford, feeling like a bitch because shit went sideways and feeling isolated because other people don't want to work with you.
Some advice, stop making excuses for yourself and indulging yourself in a victim narrative. Nothing is going to get better until YOU make it better.
And that might take awhile, so put on your big boy pants and suck it up. Be a man.
TL;DR
Stop telling a narrative of failure. Write a narrative of success.