This post is dedicated to Jamie, Joey, Tristan, Brad, Gary, Bobby, Alex, Hayden, Pasha, Nick, Jared, Damon, Andrew, Adam, Mitch, Julian, David, George, Norb, Hunter, Andy, Matt, Quinton, Jeff, Adelard, Iain, JD, Rebecca, Marshall, Dan and everyone I didn't mention but probably should have.
Around this time my best friend died of a drug overdose. I felt pretty bad about it, because in hindsight, there were times he was reaching out to me and if I had been there, maybe things would have turned out different. But I wasn't there because I had tunnel vision with my work, my business and the effects that declining health have on one's ability to accept more responsibility and opportunity.
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I didn't break down, because I don't break down. I just absorbed it all. All of the loss and all of the anger, and frustration, and helplessness. That's what I have always done. I soak it up and carry it with me.
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My family didn't really have the resources to handle my step dad being out of commission and my mother at his side, so I started to liquidate everything, and to push my savings towards my parents and sister who took time off work to be with them. After my dad came out of his coma, he was in bad shape, and I flew across the country to see my folks, and to first hand assess the situation. I will simply say that it was bad and on the way home, I decided I had to shut down my e-comm business because I couldn't run it effectively and still be available at the drop of a hat to help my parents.
You didn't mention Barry in your post? da fuq?
Gaming Google had become very easy pre-Panda. Not just easy for the top 3 or 5% of SEOs. It was (and probably still is) very easy for them. It became easy for everyone. People who knew nothing about SEO at a technical level, had very little understanding of the history or techniques of search, etc. If you could run a link building tool, or recruit 3rd world labor (while being in the 3rd world) then you could be a “professional SEO”.